Art drama has hit the timeline (part 2, electric boogaloo)

Pretty warm today! Washed my bedding and blankets. Sleeping in fresh bed sheets is the best!

My younger brother bought a secondhand Xbox Series X today. Luckily for him, he didn't get scammed and it works fine. It looks like a giant brick. Kind of ugly, ngl

Very windy and pleasantly cool. Randomly had a dream about a warrior cats rp site I ran when I was in middle school. I created it myself but abandoned it after a while. However, there was a group of dedicated users who rp'd on it for months. I felt a little bad when I ended up closing the site later. Haven't thought about that in years.

Cinco de Mayo
Slowly crawling out my slump... Started The Ink Black Heart. Really, I should be starting the book club book but eh. Super windy today.

For whatever reason, I keep thinking that it's Wednesday. After procrastinating on it for weeks, finally dusted off my resume.

Realized it's been well over a month since my last Neocities update. Oops! Worked on backfilling my calendar page a bit, with the help of my trusty Hobonichi Cousin.

Learned that the coffee shop I've been going to for the past decade is closing later this month... Pretty sad but I'll admit I'm mainly upset because I'll have to find a different spot. Most coffee shops aren't suitable to work in (either they're too small, too crowded, or too loud).

Feels like summer today. Updated my neocities and will be meeting with friends later.

Feeling nostalgic today. It must have snowed during the recent storms, because the mountains are covered in snow again. Probably won't help with the ongoing flooding and landslides up there.

$450 for a Switch 2 and $70-80 for games? Ain't no way. 💀 Also what is it with Fromsoft and multiplayer games lately? Miyazaki needs to stop playing Tarkov.

When I was a kid, I felt older than my age. Now, I feel much younger. I know it's incredibly common to feel that way as an adult. I've heard people in their 70s and 80s say that they still feel like they're in their 20s. But this is different. I feel mentally stunted, like a shrunken sapling that never grew into a full tree.

Went to the library and saw someone I knew from high school. A little awkward... (I pretended I didn't see her until she called my name lmao)

Stressful and anxious day. At least the weather was nice

Idk how, but somehow I found myself reading Meghan Markle gossip during my lunch break. I don't gaf about the royal family, but the gossip was entertaining. Low stakes and very petty. My opinion on Meghan has soured over the years, but I do think some Meghan antis are giga unhinged. She's like a 2 for 1 combo. You get to laugh at her and her antis.

Decided to write a bit in an old Moleskine notebook and the feathering/bleedthrough is insane with a fountain pen. And I'm using an EF nib with light(ish) ink! I know not all paper is suitable for fountain pens, but I didn't think it would be that bad, especially considering the price of Moleskines. 💀 Overpriced slop. My Leuchtturm handles my fountain pen just fine.

Feeling extra sluggish. My period was late and finally started today.

With all of the Oblivion remake rumors floating around, I decided to reinstall Oblivion in case Bethesda does anything fucky-wucky with the original game. I was planning on playing it, but now I'm paralyzed in terms of finding mods lmao. Out of the three recent-ish Elder Scrolls games, Oblivion is the only one I haven't beaten and am the least familiar with. I played it a bit when it first came out, but it was technically my brother's game and he was a butt when it came to me playing his games. Anyway, I ended up booting up Morrowind instead. Ah, Morrowind my beloved...

In the morning, went to a coffee shop to do some work. Drank an irish creme breve. Then, headed to the park with E and her dog. It was slightly humid and cooler than I expected. We stopped by a boba shop later and I got a basic milk green tea with boba.

Finally got Oblivion up and running. I'm surprised by how unstable it is, compared to Skyrim or Morrowind. Those two games rarely crash, while Oblivion has ctd'd 4 times in the past 2 days. And I don't think it's my mods either, because it crashed when I first booted it up with no mods. "It just works" my ass. Todd Howard, answer for your crimes.

Slumping giga hard. Trying to get my shit together. Was planning on going for a walk but then had to fix my Spotify Revanced. Grr.....

Got my free scam drink from a local coffee chain. (They have an app where, if you haven't purchased from them in a long time, they'll give you a coupon. The coupon escalates from $1 off to $3 off to eventually a free drink over several months. I've managed to scam free coffee from them several times using this method. XD)

Not a very productive day. Felt very anxious.

Visited my dad's house today. He recently got new speakers, so he showed them off by playing some music. He has a really impressive physical music collection. Also ran some errands after.

Easter
Don't really celebrate Easter, aside from making a fancy dinner. Had prime rib, stuffing, roasted broccoli, pasta, and roasted potatoes.

It's starting to warm up again.

Earth Day
One of the worst days I've had in years.

My eyes are super puffy today. I hate crying a lot. For some reason, I start smelling this acrid scent in the back of my nose whenever I cry a ton. Smelled that last night and a little bit today. Ordered takeout. Got drunken noodles. Art drama has hit the timeline. Been watching a streamer play Oblivion Remastered. Looks pretty but a little clunky. Might check it out in a year. I feel no need to play it now since I started a playthrough of the original Oblivion. Also, it apparently runs like ass, so I'm hoping maybe in a year, the performance will be better.

Feeling a little bit better today. Reviewed yesterday's callout in detail and am a little disappointed. All that, over nothing? In my opinion, the person making the callout is more of a schizo than the person getting called out.

Mild and cloudy today, started raining hard in the evening.

I don't like it when people wear circle lenses. It makes them look creepy, like lizard people.

Been playing Oblivion on and off, and am finally feeling settled into it. I'm playing a Khajiit character named Masha. It's funny comparing her to my Nerevarine and Dragonborn. They're super OP. Meanwhile, Masha is just happy to be here.

Trying to get out of my slump. Went for a walk and it started to drizzle while I was out. Rude.

Passed by a crime scene(???) on the way to and from the library. Several police were standing outside of a house that had been sectioned off by police tape. They taped around the entire property, including the SUV that was parked outside, by wrapping tape around its body and mirrors. Seems a bit excessive. No clue what happened.

Got a hazelnut breve and went to the park with E and her dog. We met a distinguished old Chihuahua named Peanut and an adorable puppy named Blue. Her dog is doing better at meeting other dogs. I still think he has a height complex, though. He's very gentle with small dogs but has issues with larger ones. It's funny because he's bigger than 99% of the dogs we meet. He's still a puppy but weighs over 100 lbs.

It's been almost three months, but my Arcane artbook FINALLY arrived! I ordered it in December from a shady 3rd party seller on Amazon. It was sold out everywhere else. Ngl, I thought I was getting scammed because the price was unusually reasonable for a sold-out item. So, I'm very pleased it actually arrived. (And in perfect condition too!) Been flipping through it. The pages smell so nice~

Finished reading Despair in the evening. I have mixed feelings

Feeling very malevolent and evil today. (I stubbed my toe.)

Uploaded my Calendar page

Today I learned that sachet is pronounced as "sa-shay" and not "sa-chet". In my defense, I've never heard that word spoken aloud before until now, when I was watching the latest Tasting History video.

Wednesday is for meetings. Boring. Made jjolmyeon for dinner, with shredded radish kimchi and thinly sliced carrots, cucumbers, cabbage, and steak as toppings. I adore how chewy the noodles are! Jjolmyeon reminds me of summer

Noooooo my modded ad-free Spotify app stopped working today!! I've heard whispers that other people's apps were breaking, but mine was fine until now. :( Sigh.... Okay, guess it's back to being old-fashioned and downloading mp3s. I suppose it's for the best. I've been slacking on updating the archive of my music library.

After much procrastination, posted my Bookbug page.

My order of Isntree Hyaluronic Acid Watery Sun Gel arrived today. Was recommended it by a friend. Why is American sunscreen so ass?

Intl Women's Day
Good morning to all women! 🥰❤️
Solidly okay morning to everyone else... I guess. 🤨

Daylight Savings
Witnessed moidal kombat in the Costco parking lot today. Two men were fighting because of parking, or something. They looked as you would expect. Red-faced, pudgy, bald, with distended guts due to steroid abuse. As I left, I heard one of the Costco attendants talking to his manager, saying the cops had been called.

Isntree Hyaluronic Acid Watery Sun Gel Mini Review: I like it so far! I have sensitive combination skin and haven't had any issues. It feels very lightweight and not greasy at all. There's no white cast and it dries quickly. My only complaint is that it's fairly pricey for such a small tube.

Went for a walk today to enjoy the mild, pleasant weather. It's supposed to cool down starting tomorrow, so I'm a little sad.

In the evening, I went painting at this local pottery shop. I've been working on this soap pump dispenser thingy for ages. I'm getting close to being done! All I need to do is finish the main coat and then touch up the details. Should be done in 1-2 sessions.

Stayed up late to see the total lunar eclipse! It was cloudy all day, but luckily the sky cleared up in the evening.

"Would you like to update Notion?" No, I would not. Stop asking. Everytime I open this godforsaken app on my PC, it asks to update. Everytime I click yes. And then everytime afterwards, it asks to update again. I don't get it. It's almost as annoying as Windows when it comes to constant updates. Wtf are the devs even updating? Their shitty AI that I don't even have enabled? (If you ask support nicely, they'll disable it for you.)

St. Patrick's Day
A very gloomy St. Paddy's Day. Started reading The Library at Mount Char.

It... snailed(?) today. Not quite snow, not quite hail. Very strange spring weather. Half the sky was blue, the other half looked like a weird half-assed blizzard of mushy hail. Shortly after, the sun came out and it all immediately melted.

Finished reading The Library at Mount Char in the evening. It was... hmm. Not what I was expecting, to say the least.

Spring Equinox
Happy 1st day of spring! Bit of a gloomy start. Stopped by the library today to pick up a hold and return books.

Poor mental health day and some health anxieties, my mood matched the weather

Book Club
Met up early to have book club over breakfast! We arrived at this breakfast cafe 20 minutes after it opened, and it was already packed with a 40 minute wait. So, we reserved our spot and went to a bakery to chat before heading back to eat. The food was very good! I ate so much. We all unanimously hated The Library at Mount Char lmao. It was fun tearing it apart. Although it was a little awkward, because our waitress always checked on us whenever we were discussing dark topics from the book, like murder and rape. Talk about awkward timing! Afterward, we got matcha smoothies and headed to the park. Recently, there's been a... social-political situation that has garnered national and international attention. This weekend, people are hosting an event in support of someone involved in that situation. Apparently, yesterday, over 1,000 people showed up over the course of the day. Today, there was less but still a steady flow. Sometimes, especially recently, I feel so blackpilled over the state of the world. It sometimes feels like no one cares and nothing matters and everything will inevitably slide towards being worse. So, seeing all of that support and being a part of it is truly uplifting.

Felt tired and had a headache, but I went painting and finally finished painting my soap dispenser thingy! I'm not fully satisfied with the way it turned out (some of the details are kinda lumpy looking), but I'm glad to be done with it! It should be ready to be picked up in like a week or so. They fire the pottery pieces in batches.

Decided to dnf A Curious Beginning. The main character was annoying me. I wouldn't exactly call her an NLOG, but she was giving ye olde Victorian NLOG vibes. Also I got annoyed when Veronica fed a dog soup that contained onions. Erm, hello?? Onions are highly toxic to dogs?? Not only is she an NLOG (kinda), but she's trying to poison a dog? Ye gods!

Less tired but I still have a headache. I think it might be caused by eyestrain. My eyes have been really bad lately. Went for a walk. Very pleasant weather, today was the start of a warm weather streak.

Dad's Birthday
Happy Birthday to my dad! Since it's the middle of the week, we can't really celebrate until the weekend.

High anxiety day. Been struggling with health anxiety lately. Can't tell if I genuinely feel bad or if I'm psyching myself into feeling bad.

Very windy today. Went for a walk and a cute old border collie followed me around for pets. I was a little worried she would keep following me away from her home, so I awkwardly entered her owners' open garage and led her to their backyard, where her owners were doing yard work. They thanked me and I went on my way. The dog looked a little offended as I left.

Colder and gloomier today. Tried 'white chili' for the first time. It was pretty tasty! Started listening to We'll Prescribe You a Cat. It's one of those quirky Japanese cat books that have been translated recently. Idk how I feel about it. I'm mostly indifferent to it and I don't really like the narrator. I suppose at the very least it'll be interesting to hear more about Japan's soul-crushing work culture from a Japanese author.

Decided to dnf We'll Prescribe You a Cat. Still felt indifferent so there's no point in continuing. Because I wanted to have an audiobook to listen to, I browsed Libby and checked out Financial Feminist on a whim. It's a little cringe. Very girlboss, libfemy a la mid 2010s (although it was published in 2022). I do like how passionate the author is and some of the intersectional points she brought up. I also appreciated that she noted that a person's financial situation is often caused by factors out of their control (such as being born into poverty, recession or natural disaster, abusive relationships, etc.), but you can still strive to improve your situation, little by little, and work towards financial independence.. Often times, financial books preach a toxic mentality about always working more while spending nothing. As long as you have debt, they seem to believe you cannot enjoy life and must toil away 24/7. This is defnitely not the approach the author is taking. Will probably listen to this for a bit, but I have a feeling I'll end up dropping it to read it physically.

Had steak with roasted potatoes, roasted broccoli, and asparagus for dinner. Been making an effort to eat more meat lately because I'm pretty sure I had a vitamin B12 deficiency and vitamin B supplements give me pizza face.

A comedy of errors today. Got flowers and went to drop them off with gifts for a friend's birthday but it turns out they're out of town. 💀 It didn't even occur to me that there was a possibility of them being gone. That's on me, though. I probably should have texted them before buying flowers, not after. Then went to pick up my soap dispenser thingy at the pottery place but it turns out there was a mistake and my piece wasn't fired in the kiln with the rest of the batch. It'll be ready next week (for real this time).

Woke up to heavy winds and sleet pounding against the window. Made budae jjigae for dinner. E texted me that NaNoWriMo was shuting down. Kind of sad about it. I haven't participated in years and I know they had controversies lately, but it's still a shame. I hope people will still keep the spirit of NaNoWriMo alive, kind of like how people do Inktober.